I know the idea that we are ALWAYS making choices (Byron Katie is a good read on this) is a strong statement, and it gets a lot of people riled up. I get it. We all have our stories about how something has been done to us, or how someone has hurt us. I have certainly had my own fair share of stories, and some of those stories have been tough slogging to get through. I have had my heart broken many times, as I am sure you have. But I now can see how I chosen to react to all of those situations in a certain way.
I am fifty-four years young now, so maybe I am starting to see things a bit differently? I don't know, but I am beginning to see life as a series of making choices. How does this relate to getting messages from my art? Well, what I get out of each piece, or each card, will tell you where I am at with my life in the moment. Chances are, some of what I get out of my reading, will resonate with you too. Science now tells us we are all inter-connected by a web that is invisible to our eyes, but not to our hearts. Every emotion is felt through that web by every creature on the planet (and even in the cosmos). We put our emotions out in to the ether and we contribute to the infinite reality of all. Yes, I believe we are that powerful.
Here's the thing, I have recently tripped upon a profound truth that has begun to change how I think and how I feel - AFFECT everything in fact. This knowing has begun to release me from the bondage of my my long held insecurities. I thought that it was worthwhile sharing what I have learned here with you - my fellow web-vibers. When we get hurt by something that is said to us, it is because we have forgotten that we all have every kind of emotion, defect, strength, feeling, thought and whatever else you can imagine, with us. Recently someone said something about me that rocked my world. She was upset by something I said, and in turn said I was a violent person. I was obviously very hurt by being called that. I could proceed by telling you the story - my story, but that would just be me defending my not violent nature. So, I am not going to go into that here. It is totally not the point of this lesson for me. My process is more about what one does with that kind of situation - that kind of hurt? That is much more interesting to me.
When we get called a name we automatically go into victim-mode. And what do we do from there? We hurt back, of course. Because hurt people, hurt people. Or as Byron Katie says: Victims are violent people.
The problem stems from the fact that we all want to be seen as good. We have been imprinted upon to think that being good is the most important quality for a human to strive for. But the truth is that seeking to be good ( at all costs) can be very dangerous. From birth we are taught to fight to defend our good character. If we really think about this, we might even agree that all wars have even been fought over defending a country's, a religion's, a person's, a philosophy's, an etc's., goodness. So, I am, at this time in my life, much more interested in honesty and authenticity, rather than goodness.
So someone calls me violent. What is my knew-jerk reaction to being called that? It is to go out and do damage control and tell everyone else who might have heard that I am this, what a good person I am, and what a NOT so good person the person who called me violent, is. Which is, ahem...violence.
Non-violence, as described by Wikipedia, is: "the personal practice of being harmless to self and others under every condition. It comes from the belief that hurting people, animals or the environment is unnecessary to achieve an outcome and refers to a general philosophy of abstention from violence based on moral, religious or spiritual principles."
My big epiphany came from reading J. Krishnamurti's book, Inward Revolution. I was reminded that we all have every character and emotion within us. We forget this and we want to be perfectly good. Perhaps we may have been told (or have been unconsciously brain-washed to believe) that in order to gain access to heaven when we die we need to be good? If this is true, we understandably become fearful of our natural tendencies towards being violent, or any other way of acting that does not fall under the umbrella of good emotions, which in turn makes that idea of violence the one that we think about the most. And we all know what we focus on, we make so.
How do I integrate that wound so I do not act out so violently to it? I accept that I DO have a violent side of me. And the person dishing out the insult, does as well. I let go of the idea that one has to be good, while the other has to be bad. We are all good and bad, violent and loving, kind and selfish, loathing and joyful....and on and on it goes (as with Freud's animal - Id part of us in the unconscious mind). We are ALL emotions and feelings and that is perfect. So from that place; the But for the grace of God, go I place, I can accept, forgive and dissipate the violence in the moment. I am not better than anyone else...but I am no worse than anybody else either.
I hope this might take some pressure off you as well. But I know herein lies true humility, and the road to world peace.
The art work reading:
The Eagle represents power, strength and the ability to see things from the highest vantage (eagle-eye view); to see everything as the Creator's sees it - every aspect of Self is Divinely created.
I love that the eagle represents brutality, and yet we love it anyway. We hate (violence) war-mongers, and are in awe of the eagle, who often steals our beloved domestic pets for it's version of a steak dinner. We accept that that is just what the eagle does. But, with us humans if we even remotely show our animal side we experience blame, shame and guilt, causing us to be fragmented and in a constant state of inner-conflict.
We live in a state of denial and conflict with our inner-animal. Our conscious minds have us slave to the idea of having to be good, so we bury the animal part of us deep in our unconscious mind - and we are continually triggered by anyone who speaks of our less than enlightened or perfect parts within us. The eagle reminds us to accept and integrate all parts of ourselves, for our best life experience. It is only through awareness and acceptance that we may consciously choose the better action. Our inner-eagle allows us to be humble by accepting that we are no better or worse than any other soul on earth. We merely HAVE differing levels of experience. If we put ourselves in the life (rather than the shoes) of another, we gain perspective as to why a person may have done what they have done, and we can then, perhaps, see that if we had lived the same life we very likely may have done the things we abhor. This is the ultimate non-conditional form of being Loving and humble.
The butterfly-fairy speaks to change. Life is constantly in a state of change and renewal, transformation and growth. Meditation is seeing everything form beyond the prison of our pasts - our old stories; it is seeing things anew - or as Viktor Frankl implied, it is seeing things from "the space (the breath) between stimuli and response.
I don't believe meditation means to force non-thinking...for we will never achieve that. I believe it means to be present to, and accountable for, everything that happens within our experience, in the moment. Meditation is the "I am that, I am" - the recognition that that which we see, that we like or dislike in another is also within ourselves.
11:11 - The Awakening Code, reminds us all that we are of Infinite Nature, within and without. There is so much more to us than what is going on on the physical plane. Remember, we are all connected. Watch the video Black Hole Here Nassim Haramein for a bit more perspective on what we actually are. We are all universes unto ourselves, and connected to the universes of each other and the cosmos, at the same time. We are so much more than our petty annoyances. The Angels want you to know how precious and Loved you are in your totality.
Enjoy your weekend, and for my fellow Canadians, happy Canada Day, eh!