What a place to be: to be free from self-judgment. I opened the door, and my mother and sister nearly tumbled in on top of me, chuckling over the concert I was holding for my audience of one: me. Only I was not by myself. I was connected. I was tuned in to the Universal Mind – tuned into All that Is. I was naturally in the Holiest of Places, my Innate-Church – a place where manifestations naturally occurred, and were my natural birth-right.
While I enjoyed my mom and sister’s attention that day, something was beginning to change within me, or without me, might better describe the transformation that was about to take place. I was beginning to become self-conscious (I was beginning to identify with my self with a little "s"). I was beginning to develop an, if I do this, I will get that, consciousness. I was losing my innocence, and my God-given connection to the Infinite Possibilities available to me from that place. The veil was starting to come down, cloaking the Perfect, Pure Spirit I Am.
I have been using the term veil longer than I have really understood the meaning of the word. I just intuitively felt that there was this something more part of me that through socialization I had somehow begun to lose; I was no longer able to access that magical place I once had known so well. But at a soul level, I knew it was still there.
Today I know that we don’t ever really lose that part of us. It is, in fact, what We all Are. So, it is impossible to lose it. But the ego (Edging God Out) learns to identify outwardly with the things that we see. We begin to feel separate. This happens through positive and negative reinforcements we encounter along our life's path. I believe that this is due to the indoctrination from society and media, as a means of keeping control over us through minimizing our True Greatness.
The television has been a great tool used by the powers that be to divert us (mini-gods) from our True Creative Heritage. At some point, we became mesmerized by the worlds we now enjoyed through the television (a kind of lazy imagination replacement meal), and our imaginations – our direct lines to God, atrophied, and got replaced by the imaginations of a few. We lost our own ability to create the kind of stories we wanted within our lives, and began to see that if we behaved in a certain way; the way the stars were acting (instead of being the Heavenly Stars we were intended to be), we might get the love and attention we all craved.
How many of us have NOT thrown the names of stars around to inflate our limited vision of ourselves? I do it all the time. Even the wonderful people who inspire us do it. They write books or create movies and documentaries, and in them they often mention their personal connections to the people who we as a society hold in high esteem; an esteem we perhaps may think is beyond what we are capable of attaining for ourselves? We put these special few on pedestals, and when they show us that they are just like us; that they too make all sorts of mistakes, we may even thank them for doing that. We even consider this sharing of their humanness being humble. But is it? Perhaps it has more to do with each one of us having forgotten who we are – having forgotten that We are One – that we are all part of The One Divine Mind that makes up the Universe – perhaps we have forgotten that we are all part of the I am that, I am.
Recently I watched The Moses Code, and listened to Gregg Braden;s interview with Nancy Levin on Hay House World Summit. Both of these woke me up a little bit more to the understanding that I am that, I am. For the longest time I have heard the term I am, and used it myself, all over the place. I watched Tom Shadyak’s movie I Am a few years ago. That sparked an awareness that there just might be something more to us – something that I could not quite put my finger on. I couldn’t fully comprehend what they were getting at, though. I realize now that I was coming at this riddle from the wrong angle – from the perspective of being a separate individual.
So what does this have to do with singing on the toilet, innocence, creativity, or even media, you ask? Well, everything, actually. Because I have forgotten how to daydream and how to use my own imagination, I have spent 40 years feeling inferior. I have spent all of that time looking for, and thinking that I needed something or someone, out there to lift me up so I could feel better – so I could feel like I was somebody. But the Kingdom of God has always been within me – the kingdom of God has always been within all of us. I forgot that. I forgot that I Am That, I am.
You are me, and I am you, and We are all part of God. We are not separate. We are in this together. We are supported and Loved. What I think of you, I also think of me. We are designed that way. Science has even shown that we have a part of our brains that are actually hard-wired to processes everything that we think and say about others as if it were true about ourselves. We cannot separate the two – for what we give to others we also gift to ourselves, be it negative or positive, limiting or generous, we DO IT to ourselves too.
For our ego, a part of us that has been indoctrinated through media brain-washing to have to be number one, creating competitive machines, out of the divine beings We Truly Are, this is a hard pill to swallow. This concept that I am talking about does not support the spirit of competition at all – rather, it supports the spirit of Unity.
I know how hard it can be to break this habit of being competitive. I too have spent many years believing in lack – believing that there is only so much deliciousness available to us – only so much abundance to go around. I am sure most of us in the western world have said that we believe the Universe is infinite, but do we really believe what we are saying? I still have trouble giving that complement to someone who is deserving of it, especially when I see them doing what I may want to do but perhaps have not yet had the courage to try to do it. I even struggle praising them if it feels like they my be catching up to me when I have worked so hard (don't you know) to get where I am. This thinking is seriously limiting the joy I may get to experience.
If we want to encourage our children to be great we should encourage them to Love and see greatness in others. We should not try to indoctrinate them into being performance machines – we should not encourage them to try to be better than others are, but to Love who they are, and be the very best they can be from that place – to Love the I am that, I am in themselves – to Love that they are part of all of the I Am that Is. And if we can instill that in them they will truly be the Stars they have always been.