"The sapling doesn't want anything because it is at one with the totality, and the totality acts through it. Look at the lilies of the field, how they grow said Jesus, They toil not, neither do they spin. Yet even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. We could say that the totality Life wants the sapling to become a tree, but the sapling doesn't see itself as separate from life and so wants nothing for itself. It is one with what Life wants. That's why it isn't worried or stressed. And if it has to die prematurely, it dies with ease. It is as surrendered in death as it is in life. It senses, no matter how obscurely, its rootedness in Being, the formless and eternal one Life."
"...whenever there is inspiration, which translates as "in spirit," and enthusiasm, which means "in God," there is a creative empowerment that goes far beyond what a mere person is capable of."
Both, Eckhart Tolle in A New Earth.
I've had a really busy weekend (month), full of all sorts of people energy and changes. And, when I find myself in these highly charged situations, they become a test for me to see how connected I really am to Universal Intelligence. Honestly, I think I failed the test last night! And this morning, I know that's okay.
Wayne Dyer said that if a person was truly connected to their Source, and took that connection with them into all their affairs, they could enter a black tie event in sneakers, shorts and a t-shirt and not even notice. I am not there yet. I'm more like a sponge, soaking up all of the energy, and losing myself in obsessive thinking.
I've never been good in crowds. I find that my insecurities become magnified. And after all the excitement dies down, I am left feeling like the duck, that Tolle talked about in A New Earth, who needs to shake off all of the excited energy he had absorbed, through fighting with another duck. Maybe that duck understood something that I don't (yah think?). Perhaps it's perfectly natural to need to release an over-absorption of energy. I sure hope so, because that's exactly what I did when I got home last night.
Interestingly, speaking about animals, Tolle said that during the tsunami of 2004, hardly any animals died. He suggested that, because animals do not have egos like people have, they are naturally more aligned with Universal Intelligence, which allows the Universe to lead them towards safety, through communicating with them via their intuitions? It makes sense then, that Intuition must then be the language of the soul.
I'm not sure why I felt the way I did last night. And, I'm not sure why the universe wants me to be so busy right now, but I feel some resistance towards it. I want to crawl into my safe little cave, and withdraw from humanity for awhile (recharge my batteries). Perhaps it's okay for me to do that? I just might be allowing myself the "space" (since WE ARE made up of 99.9 % space) to surrender to what I am needing to do to take care of myself right now? Maybe sensing what I need, and stepping into alignment with that, IS going with the flow? It might be that, when I fight against my intuition, thinking I'm suppose to be doing something, other than what my intuition is telling me to do, I'm totally lost in my ego, and can't hear my gentle soul? Personally, I think I am as close to the truth, as I can be, through using my thinking mind. Because, trying to "think" my way into understanding Universal Intelligence, isn't really possible. Intuition is more of a "right" Knowing than it is a thought.
Anyway, today, I don't have much to give (I'm feeling pretty drained). But, I CAN see that I Am the Blue Sky, against which these dark clouds (thoughts) just continuously float on by, so, I think I will let them. "This too shall pass." Accepting how I feel right now, is a start towards learning how to Be in the moment.