I continue to be humbled and fascinated that so many people seem to relate to these paintings! I am a poor judge of my art really! I looked at this girl and I wanted to mess her up a bit. She seemed "too sweet"! A little too perfect or Utopian for me (inner sabotage-r?). But, I continue to be brave and put my art out there. And guess what you guys always surprise me! You love her the way she is! So I am taking a cue from you and choosing to stop and allow her to be how she is!
My friend, Carlye, says this: " And love her open heart...willing to allow anyone in!" Hearing that really makes my heart sing! Imagine that I get the opportunity to play a part in creating that kind of emotion in someone else's heart! I am so honored to be of service to someone else! To provide anyone with a moment where they can feel joy! That is really something! Before I get all wrapped up in giving myself a big pat on the back, I want to say that this feeling is not really coming from me! It comes from a connection of our own beautiful hearts with Source energy. I really believe this. I believe we all want to be joyful, crave joyfulness, so when we see something that reflects back that joy that lives in our hearts we feel happy. The "joy" picture was already there in our heart to begin with we just lost sight of it. I think it is our purpose here on Earth...to find our way back to that heart center! That "joy" place! We are so connected, and when we vibrate at the same frequency we attract more of that like energy to us! This painting is about that joy center that lives in our heart! It is a gift for me as much as you! It is a knowing that we are safe when we trust we are safe to let "anyone in"! When we love ourselves enough we can only attract more of that to us! I think when we are there in that truly loving place, it is impossible to attract anything other than that love to us!
So, I am on a journey, just like you are! And this past two weeks has been eye-opening....no heart opening! I decided that I needed to open up just a little bit more, so I set up a coaching appointment with the gorgeous Christa Thompson from Wild and Wise Women. I knew I needed to do some growing around a few key issues that I have been carrying around for too long and holding the "me" back! Christa is helping me to identify what those might be! One of those suitcases is a fear I have of being on camera, especially film! She challenged me to make some videos of myself! What I found was that I loved myself! Not in an egotistical kind of way, but rather as a Soul! I looked myself square in the eyes and saw beauty beneath my facade or "earth suit". I have been presenting this facade to the world for as long as I can remember and have been really attached to the way "I think" people perceive me. I came away from that exercise feeling more compassion for myself and others! I came away with a knowing that I don't have to be 20, 30, or even 40 to be beautiful! I can be beautiful because I am part of you! I am part of the whole. I am part of the creator! Holy crap! This is big! All this exterior BS I have been carrying around has been keeping me back from celebrating who I really am...part of the whole of humanity! It has been keeping me separate! So, I am going to try and show you that video of who I am because I can see my soul in it! I can see yours too! What a relief!
Anyway, I know this may be a little woo woo for some! But I just don't care! it is who I am and I am grateful to be here - in this place! Have a really awesome few days until I write here again! And thanks for being a part of my journey and allowing me to be part of yours! So much love and light to you all! xoxox